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Life is such a drag for me nowadays; I do not know what to do in this sweltering Hyderabad heat. It is so hot I feel a times that my eyelids are drying out if I do not take enough water any day.
I do not feel happy nowadays; not that I am sad; but I am in a zone of emotions where one is totally blank; where he or she does not realize what really is going on in the mind. I am trying to realize; perhaps it is part of the on-going process of understanding myself.
I have been reading Lokmanya Tilak's biography nowadays, and feel ashamed about the kind of life I am leading right now. This man had started a reputed college and school by the time he was twenty four; and here I am, rotting away in wait of my twenty third birthday. But one thing is for sure; I am close to realizing what I really want to do with my life. I just wish that I now can really gather the courage and strength to follow that calling.

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SWATZ said…
Randomness personified... could identify with your flow of emotions...There are times in life when you feel that things are not going the way you want them to be... or sometimes you feel so numb that nothing seems to bother you (read: positive or negative)... It is so weird and bizzare... lol... Keep writing!!! Cheers... :D
April 15, 2009 at 11:31 AM
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